“There are a lot of pretty faces around the globe, but few are beautiful; because beauty can be found in the pretty person’s personality.”
A year and a half or two years ago, I was a walking small coke bottle with a vital stat of 38-27-40 that people were lining up to. They hit on me a lot and I hated it. Now I am a walking coke liter bottle that lost reason to think she is pretty, yes I grew fat and I grew big. It was very disappointing how I became this stout, I lost my confidence and hopes. It was my fault for thinking shallow and deciding to gain to be able to see if someone would love me for me. I forgot how it felt to be called beautiful with no sarcasm, how to be called amazing in awe without having to cover it with white lies. Yes I am sad, but it does not mean I could not retain what I had back then.
After hearing some news from a friend that guys only liked me, because they wanted to get into my pants, I decided to get fat. With the help of my injured knee (torn all my ligaments on my right knee) I gained 10 pounds, now that I’m in college I gained 60 pounds in a year. Yes I am disappointed and miserable. I decided to get fat, since I wanted someone to love me for the inner and the outer me. I’ve dated 3 special men (Kevin, Richie, E..) who dated me for the looks maybe and a lil bit of the personality, but now that I have a man who actually loved me for the inner me, I want to get back to what I was before. If not, closer.
Beauty. I want to be beautiful and go back to the old me, not just because I want to look beautiful in front of people, but also for my health and I want to prove people that they are wrong. I wanna do what other people said that I can’t do, because I know nothing would be impossible if I believe in myself and call onto the Almighty.
Hmm.. if you are somewhat like me, then just hope for the best. Trust yourself and think that you are beautiful, ’cause everyone has beauty inside ‘em it’s just that not everyone can visualize ‘em.
Got any tips to lose fast?